i miss you

i miss you

i have no words to tell

no lines to speak

no sentences to build

my longing for you has consumed my mind

i miss you

every waiting day of my life

seems like an abyss

vague. never-ending. eternal

i miss you

each day holds a promise

a promise of remembrance and love

a hope that every day without you would be over

i miss you

hey, are you hearing me?

i am screaming from the bottom of my heart

a drowned by the uncertainty of my mind

i miss you

a yearning so intense

it leaves me awake at night

staring into the dark void of my room

i miss you

this would not stop as long as

my languid heart tells me that

at the other end of the line

someone misses me too 

tula

wala lang… mga tula lang…

Sonnet XLIII

HOW do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday’s

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with the passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints, -I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life! – and, if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Grief

I TELL you, hopeless grief is passionless;

That only men incredulous of despair,

Half-taught in anguish, through the midnight air

Beat upward to God’s throne in loud access

Of shrieking and reproach. Full desertness,

In souls as countries, lieth silent-bare

Under the blanching, vertical eye-glare

Of the absolute Heavens. Deep-hearted man, express

Grief for thy Dead in silence like to death–

Most like a monumental statue set

In everlasting watch and moveless woe

Till itself crumble to the dust beneath.

Touch it; the marble eyelids are not wet:

If it could weep, it could arise and go.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

from Is Life Worth Living?

IS life worth living? Yes, so long

   As there is wrong to right,

Wail of the weak against the strong,

   Or tyranny to fight;

Long as there lingers gloom to chase,

   Or streaming tear to dry,

One kindred woe, one sorrowing face

   That smiles as we draw nigh;

Long as a tale of anguish swells

   The heart, and lids grow wet,

And at the sound of Christmas bells

   We pardon and forget;

So long as Faith with Freedom reigns,

   And loyal Hope survives,

And gracious Charity remains

   To leaven lowly lives;

While there is one untrodden tract

   For Intellect or Will,

And men are free to think and act

   Life is worth living still . . . .

Alfred Austin

spaghetti at kanin

ayan… nandito ako sa skul at sinasamantala ang libreng internet…

spaghetti at kanin.

kahapon, dahil walang magluluto ng ulam sa bahay namin, at tinatamad din ako, tumakbo ako sa malapit na karinderya para kumain. habang hinihintay ang gulay na in-order ko (takot kasi ako sa kumakalat na hog cholera kaya di nagbababoy) naki-usyoso ako sa katabi ko. napatingin ako sa kinakain nya na para bang na-shock… spaghetti at kanin ang kinakain nya.

napatingin ako, napatulala at tinitigan ko sya ng hindi nya nahahalata. pagdating ng order ko, tinitingnan ko parin sya. sarap na sarap sya sa kanyang kinakain at para bang walang pakialam sa pakialamera na tumititig sa kanya.

nang pagka-alis nya naisip ko na, “anong sustansya kaya ang makukuha nya sa spahetti at kanin?” puro carbohydrates ang nakukuha nya, pasta plus kanin… puro starch at magiging sugar ito na mapupunta sa dugo nya at magkaka-diabetes sya, sabihin na atin na me lycopene ang kinakain nya gawa ng tomato sauce ngunit, di parin sapat un.

kung sa bagay, marami syang energy na makukuha dun.

at napagtanto ko din, salamat sa konsesiya ko na sumisigaw ng  “BAKIT KA BA NANGIGI-ALAM SA PAGKAIN NG IBA?! KUMAIN KA NA LANG!” pagkatapos kong marinig ang sigaw na bumabatingaw sa tenga ko, kumain na ako at di na nangialam pa sa pagkain ng iba.

yan siguro ang makukuha mo pag nag-nursing ka tulad ko.